Random Blogging...September 23
I'm in the Army, now! I swore in yesterday, and I'm officially in, now! Also, I will say that the Army personnel offered me with more than any of the Air Force recruiters ever did. Boy, I should mention how I went from months planning of being in the Air Force to immediately switching to the Army.
I believe it was exactly two weeks ago...to note, I'm not in the best of energy to write near-perfectly...so, there will some breaks and pausing with my tone. Already, I was stressed out with work. One -- things happened at work and my boss might be fired in six months. Two -- I had to retake the ASVAB since the Air Force considered my score low (I don't like tests, enough). Last, I decided to "escape" from my job to become a flight attendant. Anyway, I spotted an Army personnel and asked for a cigarette. He responded, "If you join the Army." Initially, I took it as a joke. I told him my situations, and he said he would help me find another job...
faster. He also offered to help me get my Illinois driver's license since I haven't been driving for around five years and my paternal Chicago relatives would be of no help. From that point and more cigarettes later, I aborted everything: the Air Force, thoughts of becoming a flight attendant...
everything. I'm making plans to resign from AirServ Corporation and flight to St. Louis for a few weeks, in December. To end this, at the MEPS, they gave me an Army-themed backpack, with a shirt, stickers, a magazine, and a book on tips for workouts and basic training.
I'm gonna be well off, now!
Random Blogging...September 15
Two weeks ago, I was back in California, enjoying Disneyland, Hollywood, and American Girl dolls. I was relatively happy. However, since I returned, I'm moody, as usual.
I'll be open with this one -- yeah, I miss someone. Moreover, it's a guy -- and that's the most I'll hint.
Also, I'm angrily jealous that every relative or friend of his gets to spend time with him and I can't! These people get to see him and be tangible to him, while I'm in the Windy City! Why I did I move to Chicago, then? I ask myself the same question. Well, when I left, I hope I would change. Though, I've changed naturally and physically -- emotionally, old feelings die hard.I heard last night that Patrick Swayze has died. I'm disappointed to heard that. I really thought he would come out of it, but like Farrah Fawcett, he died trying.
God bless, him.
I found out that my ex is dating another girl. Initially, I was a little surprised, but I'm not jealous unlike with the first person I mentioned. Why? Well, when I think back to our relationships, I wasn't in love with him. It wasn't a crush. The first time, I really attracted to mostly other women who I couldn't have, and I got with him to snap out of it. I thought it would help me revert as the
Caroline others remember or thought of me to as. However, I was depressed and somewhat vanished, leaving him heartbroken. The second time, I wanted to just get married and have children...along with escaping feelings for other people again and the reputation of being "confused" to many people. I
did grow more fond of him shortly after and felt like a failure when he dumped me. However, my feelings weren't pure...I feelings were corrupted and I wanted to get something, run away from something else, and show everyone that I can maintain a long relationship. I could never do it, again. Well,
that's all I will say about that.
Last, I did have something to say to other...
a surprise. However, I will say it later.
